Holy Shit Three Posts

I finally left the morris home. I think that I over stayed my welcome. Everytime that I walked in to a room I just felt like they rather that I not be there. But now I am home and comfy without feeling bad. I am glad cause I down loaded Lime Wire and it rocks so much.

Not illegal either so hell yes.

I wish my dad was home so that I could get my god damned back pack.

School is going to suck though. I can already tell. I hate getting up so early and the drama that will persue won't be fun.

But this will also be a good year for good things to happen. I have the friends thing down but this year I must do better at the whole learning thing.

I am going to go and listen to music so. cheers.

"Yeah us and our dirty babies."

well here i am again.

knowing that no one will really go to this journal is sort of rewarding because i can say what i really mean instead of sugar coating it. it's refreshing. it feels nice. well i am at the my friends the morris's house and i plan on trying to stop being moody and get over the fact...well that's all i'll say.


ergh. i have a terrible secret and it is killing me on the inside. i just want to tatto is on my face so that i can stop hiding. but it really dosen't matter because it won't work out as always. my fucking luck yet again. to bad that this one hurts more cause i can't be upset about it cause the situation won't allow it. i am really sad right now just thinking about what a smuck i am.

i really have no self esteem but i always go back to the same reason and my mantra.

why should i?

no one has told me to think any differently then i have for the last 15 years.

school better be what i want this year. i can't stand the same old shit. i had it and now i have tasted it and i need it.

it's an addiction.


and i am in rehab.

my own cozy little hell.

This Is my first entry...

I don't know why i got this or even if i will keep typing in it.


well i like it. as kathleen says this is a happier place then typing in deadjournal. so i am going to go and see what will happen.